lilsuperlaura

Life, has picked up. Well it has for a while. I just have been to busy trying to enjoy it as much as possible. That's the way to live. Is it not? I'm not being so paranoid any more. I still worry but that's just my nature. Friends are an amazing cure. Thank you

All I want to do is make you smile, I can’t even do that anymore. I try with all my heart to do everything for you, but all you do is become mean. It’s getting me down, but even the hope of you sweet words to me again keeps me going. What happen to them words, the ones where you said you never want anything else. I need you and want to spend my life with you…?? Where are they! You were the only person I ever wanted to get old with. Who I hoped I could get old with. Why do you push me away now….? Why does it feel like you hate me so…? Why does it feel like I’m just a convenience to you…? "Just why d

"I've got problems of my own. They ain't the kind that can be, Solved with an atom bomb" I keep falling back into this again.... It's all the same again.... I know I shouldn't feel like this Yet I do. I should be happy. But I'm not. I know things are good. But I feel worthless. I feel like all my insides are knotted up, and rotting. I do things I don't want to. I feel things I don't to. "You know I gotta go out, Get something for my head. If I keep on doing this, I'm gonna end up dead..."